Divorced, but 'still hopeful' to reconcile.

[still hopeful]

so, disengage. Now. You are codependent on her. She treats you like a woose. Does that feel good?

No, it does NOT. She has treated me like a wuss, and I've allowed it for so long. I have begun making changes in NOT allowing her mistreatment of me.

Generally, it is easier for me to just not be around her, but I am growing. I am changing. It is so easy to lapse back into my a$$ kissing behavior, because it is so familiar and such a deeply ingrained bad behavior patter.

I like you. You're not a woose. You're a man. I like that man.

THIS is exactly why I love this man. If you want it right between the eyes, he'll deliver a truth blow right quick. Thank you, Frank. I appreciate having you as a friend. I appreciate your willingness to deliver the truth, holding nothing back. I need you as my friend.

I got myself off my own right track. I am struggling to find my 'track' again because I've been off it for so long, but I know it's right in front of me; invisible due to the 'forest for the trees' syndrome from which I have suffered for almost 10 years. I see what I need to do and I'm making positive strides to kill the wussy in me. I AM a man...a GOOD man. I deserve better. I demand better...from me and those I choose to allow in my life.