Standing on the Edge

[native]

Do you normally contact your W or does she contact you?? Have you tried only contacting her about D6 issues? How about no more R talks until you really see her anger subside? Just throwing out suggestions here. How is your GAL coming along?? What have you been doing??

For the last 4 months I have done the contacting but have kept it to discussion about our D. I haven't really talked about our relationship much at all. In fact, I scolded her for treating me like we were married before Christmas. ( She was 'instructing' me on proper sponge care....she's very finicky about a number of things)

Of course, I was tempted to let her keep treating me like we were married, but it irked me that she felt like she could nag me even thought she was obviously not committed to our R.

Anyway, I have avoided pursuing for 4 months so I decided to try something a little different.

A few nights after the recent phone conversation in which she was irritable, I decided to call her up, just to talk again.

Now why would I do something so plainly stupid....?

Because I realized later that she had snapped at me due to being exhausted from an extra difficult time at work, and she had been on her period....nuff said.

So I called up and after a few pleasantries (I could tell she was in a receptive mood) I made my move.

I told her that I missed her. I said that we used to talk together so easily and really had some good times together.

Now all my DBing friends are seeing warning signs and screaming at their computers 'Don't do that you idiot ! Haven't you learned anything ?'

Yes, it was a calculated risk, but I felt the time was right. One of the reasons she had been unhappy is that she felt I was not paying her enough non-sexual attention.

Anyway....her response was........' I miss you too...'

So we kind of stumbled around, both of us a little awkwardly. All the time I am waiting for the other shoe to drop, so I'm looking for a way to get out of the conversation before it goes South.

So I said goodnight, and she mumbled 'I love you' or so I think I heard her say.. it seemed she was expecting me to say 'I love you ' to her, and she was responding in kind, but only at the last minute realizes she has gone out on a limb, and I only said goodbye.

We have had 2 subsequent phone conversations since and her demeanor has been very warm, sometimes laughing, not at all sounding like she wants to get away.....

good signs.

And now I know that I must take it s-l-o-w.........

As you say Msm, she will no doubt pull back if she feels like we are getting closer, so I will play it cool and not go overboard.

I'm staying here in peicing for a while.


Oh yeah, as far as GALing, I am focusing on my career, because my new buisness was floundering before all of this. I need to make it a success for me and for us, if there is to be an us.

And I am excited in the direction it is taking me. I am learning things that opens up new directions and I feel like I am in preparation for bigger things. One of my latest goals is to find one networking event to attend per week, to help build buisness contacts. And I am reading (studying a lot). So thats my general focus now. And it makes me feel good. It's a frightful time right now, economy wise, so I am glad to feel I am being proactive about my career.