I seem to have alot of anger from being betrayed as well. Trying to change that anger into acceptance. I am sick of being angry and hurt and the reality is its not changing the situation. I am the only one hurting and angry.
Which is why I want to be 'angry' without being 'vindictive'. I'm not 'angry' at her as much as I am angry at myself for not protecting ME. Not expressing ME.
This is not about her, or my anger AT her. It's about my anger in general and how I have suppressed it and turned it inward to become hurt and pain.
It's MY anger. MINE.
If W chooses to push my buttons in the yet to be defined 'future' then I will allow myself to be angry. No eggshells, just me.
The past is what it is. Nothing more. Nothing less.
