Oh Cinco,

In the end, at least you landed in the spot you wanted to. The TV is a problem here too. I think it soothes and provides an escape just as much as alcohol does.

I hope that she's going to be ready to face herself one day soon and stop escaping there. Could it be that she is avoiding her own pain, not just you (even if the past with you is part of the cause of it)?

Keep trying to get through to her. Don't give up!

Lucky