Dear Maria, Please don't think that I am urging you to choose the fairy tale ending. I am not, I am wanting you to choose a ending that you can live with and be happy with.
An ending that you can be comfortable in and grow,one that will fulfill your needs and desires and that will make you feel loved and secure in.
One that gives you the depth and strength you will need to weather the storms that will surely occur(hopefully not to often) as you journey on.
You have had the magic and cup full to overflowing briefly(lock it away in your heart) like me you are both a romantic but also a realist(or so I feel) and know that it is either rare or impossible to sustain in the long term especially when real life intrudes.
Still there is a world of difference between settling and compromise even for the father of your children. You still need some depth, some passion and especially some desire,how else will you have the strength and depth of love to endure lifes trials and tribulations that effect all of us at some point in life.
I liked the point about the selfish v the thougtful that maybe your C is getting around to. It would be an unusual tactic but one that might work.
I am thinking of you.