I was typing my long post and you posted at the same time:)
I do want my M. That is what I am trying to fight for and I know I am going about it all wrong. I feel like a cat chasing its tail right now.
I probably do say a lot of things to H to make him think I no longer want the M. Mainly I think I do that to see what his response will be.
It's just so hard to maintain when I feel like a ping pong ball. One day he wants me, the next...not so much.
But now I have set 2 boundaries....the first...no talk of OW and that will be easy right now since the 2nd is....N/C until the end of the weekend. That will be a big one for me. He can e-mail. If he calls....he can leave a message. I know I have the strength in me to do this.
