Hey everybody, thought I would check in. I haven't been on here in over a month. I think I was kind of getting in a rut and I was focusing too much on the D....so I just had to take a break.
I still haven't seen xh since September, but we did have a good talk over email. He told me he was sorry, he was a bad person...blah, blah, blah....but the good part was that I got some things off my chest. I no longer feel the anger towards him that I once did. The fact is, that despite how much I loved him, I am really much better off without him. He never had the drive for life or his career that I did and I feel like I have advanced so much farther without him. He is still stuck in that same "woe is me" place.
I am still dating the same guy and that is going really well. He gives me the space I need and he has his own things going on...so I am not constantly trying to entertain him and keep him happy as I did with xh.
I have started a new position at work and it comes with so many more responsibilities, but the days go quicker and I don't seem to dread going to work as much as I did when I started.
I have been working out like crazy and am finally back in a routine. I have dropped 15 lbs this month (....had started gaining weight after the D ), and I feel great.
All in all things are pretty good. I hope everyone is doing ok, I will have to take some time to catch up with all of you.
), and I feel great. 
