Al, Sara, I am planning to ask the Cs about the selfish and about the time. I dont know of anybody reconciling with NO time together. I am still separated and still detached.
H has no clue what has happened in my heart. He thought the donkey would survive and took his time. Right now when he hears me saying I dont love him I believe he thinks I am saying it to hurt him, to pay him back. I would never do that after what I have been through. This changed me, the pain scarred me badly and I appreciate how it feels to be rejected and hurt. He thinks that if he finds 2 extra hours a week that will do.
Sometimes I am thinking that if we end up Divorcing, I will feel sorry and sad about him. I cant imagine how he will go on knowing he destroyed our family and lost the woman he says he loves because he waited till everything was good, the Euro to finish, the vacation, my trip to NY even... He took time he didnt have. And time costs... Nobody can escape the price. Nobody.
