Thank you Trixi for your encouragement. I've been working on forgiving myself, but it's SO hard. I've been 2 seconds from weeping all morning, and very glad no one is in the office today to see all this.
He's not thinking of recovery, doesn't think he has a problem. In fact, yesterday when he was helping with my tire, he was reeking of marijuana. He doesn't see a problem with that, or his drinking. (2 24-packs every couple of days)
Today -- and I CAN do this -- I called al-anon to check on meetings. My daughter is having substance abuse problems as well, and I feel like I'm drowning with all this stuff going on. But at least, I can have some control over my response to this. Thank you again for your help.
~Trying to keep hope alive~ Me-53 H-52 together: Married 24 yrs; together 31 Kids-5 grown (1 D; 4 S) Bomb: 11/08 (separated ever since)
