I am just waiting for the judge to sign the papers. I have been waiting patiently for 2 weeks since they were sent to him. I don't know how much more waiting I can take.
I am feeling very anxious, nervous and sad all rolled into one. I thought when all of this was said and done I would feel a big relief lifted from my shoulders. Not so, the waiting is making it worse.
I know this is the path I had to take to get my life back on track because I couldn't hang out in limbo any longer (4 years is long enough). I just feel like such a failure right now.
I want to have fun but then I feel guilty for having fun. I find myself feeling down every day when I get home. I banter back and forth with quite a few people on here, through emails and other sites but then when I get home I ask myself if I went too far and what people must think of me. Ugh!!! I hate this.
I need a vacation. If I had somewhere to go, I would be out the door in a heartbeat.
Any suggestions on how to get through this without going back 2 steps? I have come too far to fall down again. That curb looks so comfortable but I don't want to waste my time sitting there anymore.
