Thrown for a Loop

[Indigo]

today, I feel so stupid and disappointed in myself. yesterday was Husband's birthday, and he had said (promoted by me, another disappointment in myself), that we could spend some time together. So I waited for a call -- nothing. When I got out of work, I had a flat tire, so I called him for help. He was making dinner for himself, and said he had decided to spend his birthday by himself, and I got kind of upset, since that's not what he said. but he still agreed to come help me out. I 'should' have said just thanks for the help, but no..... I engaged in one of those conversations asking for some reassurance. And everything in me was screaming... JUST WALK AWAY. but I didn't. So now, although, it wasn't a 'bad' conversation, I'm SO disappointed, that I didn't remain neutral, that i didn't just keep it light. And I just hate that I probably put my whole sitch back a notch... what IS it in me that I seem to sabotage the good work I've been doiong?? And how do you recover from that? I'm just so disgusted with myself!