I'm doing OK right now. Thanks for asking. We went out last night to an awards banquet where he had to attend as part of his job. It was a lovely evening, however, I found myself having to stop a lot of thoughts. For instance, he has always complained when I have on lipstick when he wants to kiss me. He calls it "lipcrap." He did it again last night. Only this time, I had to fight off the urge to say, "Did you call it 'lipcrap' on OW?" I know she must have worn it all the time as she is quite the high society girl. Then later, he said "Thank you for coming with me tonight. I had a nice time with you." My mind went to the bad thought place, but I held my tongue. It hasn't been even 2 months since I learned of the A yet, so I think these stupid thoughts are probably quite normal. I'm looking forward to the day when I can get past them. My thoughts are SO much better than they were even a month ago, so I think that is a good sign. I hope I'm not rushing it. He has been so supportive. And he really is doinjg all the right things. He has never blamed me for the A. He ended it and never contacted her again. He is completely transparent now. The list goes on and on. Michele would be proud of him. :-) However, the hang ups are all me now. I know that is to be expected as it is all new to me still. We've been making love quite often - although I must admit that it is hard sometimes because I am comparing myself to her even though I have no way to make the comparison. I never did and never will ask any of those questions. I know they will do more harm than good. I am just trying to navigate through the murky waters that I thought were so clear.
I just realized our husbands both had the affairs about the same time. Uh=oh. He's home. I'd better run.
