Two WAS's- is it really meant to be or walk away?

[Loving_Life]

So, my D is plodding along- 5 weeks to court date. There's no way in my right mind I would want to move back to my old city. I'm glad I'm feeling stronger now.

there has to be "enough" there to even piece together.

I guess what gets me is that I feel like I'm 'giving up' but it's not my fault stbx gave up, closed the door, whatever. At the end of the day, I realize that I was willing to keep giving it a chance- that makes me feel like a decent person. Stbx didn't treat me that great either, so what am I losing? At this point, I'm not even sure I'll be talking with stbx on the phone again. That does make it easier. Perhaps an email here and there to work out final details. My L is preparing the final settlement. One tiny worry is if stbx can't get approved for refinancing the house. I really hope I can stay strong and make it through the court date.