"I don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting...

[theotherhalf]

N15 had a ball game again tonight. Is it Friday yet?? TOH is really doing good. Haven't accomplished much this week but spending time with the girls. That's okay too. Haven't had the need busy myself to keep my mind from H. He is in my thoughts but no longer consuming them. Last time I called him was Sunday. It was once again a wasted phone call. I know like a two year old that won't keep their hand off the stove.

Sunday afternoon he did stop in for a minute. But probably only because BIL was here. He really didn't say too much to me, and I didn't him. That was okay too. After the morning conversation I really had nothing more to say anyway. He did come in last night after doing chores. I think he wanted to tell me about neighbors mom passing away. He came in complaining at first because I didn't open the shed door after coming home. The tractor was in there running, he was at the other place. By the time he got back here the shed was full of exaust. Said he was about efixiated. Oops! I thought about it, but decided not to. I just said sorry. :P Anyway, it was a good visit, short, but good.

Last night I made chicken noodle soup with homemade noodles, and dinner rolls for the neighbors. Took them to them today. What a lucky lady this was that passed. She was ninty two. In pretty good health. She never had to go to a nursing home, and she passed in her sleep. If we could all only be so blessed.

Having some real issues with N15 lately too. It really seems so pointless anymore. We have struggled with her since she came here. She was 8. Still she lies, sneaks around, etc... I think I am letting her go as well. FOR ME!. I've done all I can do. I will continue to put a roof over her head, food in her belly, and clothes on her back. The rest is up to her. I know that I have done the best that i could do.

Yada Yada, that's whats up with TOH. Thanks for reading...