he has been drinking again and now he has been sober for a week? and he has been unbearable. Do you two go to church? No < I am very religious and he is not.
Do you two have any kind of activity that you do together, just the two of you? no, I invite him to try things and he always says no, he hates to ride bikes, I love it , he hates most anyhting excpet oh he does like for us to go to movies.
Has he read any of the books? no he thinks it is all BS Will he? NO IT IS MY FAULT HE ISNT THE ONE WHO NEEDS CHANGING< his exact words, When is it harmonious? What are you two doing when you are both enjoying the time with each other? We are peers and he listens to me and I listen and I am loving and open not walking around like a wounded animal and flinching anytime he gets ugly.
Just in November and early DEc we were getting along so well I thought I was dreaming. WE had made it he even mentioned having another baby ? OUR youngest is 9 and I have had a tubal, he even asked me to look into tubal reversal.
Then when I picked him up at the airport, he was dying to see me ( after working away out of town for 3 weeks) I LET HIM DOWN. I was frigid and didnt do anything. He believed me and i lied. he exepted me to fondle him a bit in the lobby on the way out to the Car and get all horny nuaghty and take of my tights and stiletto boots and show him the godds or something like this. And when I didnt I was just as frigid as I have always been. And here I didnt know I was being tested. I was really going to ravage him later, and when I stated this he says oh so it is just whenver the [censored] you feel like it Ali? HUH?
I then start crying cause he , strike that I allow his comments to hurt me and I cry. Then come sthe shut down...
I am being very hnest here. And to be even more honest he just told me over the phone a bit ago he is thru with me , he has said this 3 X this weeks but this time he said he meant it and to never call again.
Sorry Lucky,, I am ok but here you are helping me and I was supposed to be helping you. Sure I see the pain I cause by shutting down but he cuts me off at the pass half the time. he never gives me a chance. I dunno love, I dunno.... I truly have given him the best of me and it really seems to not be enough. ?
