Hey gang, thanks for the comments and I will say this, I appreciate my mom more than anything. She is a very special woman who throughout my life has provided me with the security of knowing that no matter what she always loves me. What she did for me and the kids was not out of the ordinary for her, she is just special.

I think in reflecting on this the reason it is bugging me is because of something Carrie said in her dear John letter when she dropped the bomb. She told me that she always felt that I looked down on her/our friends. She told me that when we had friends that lived below our level I would look at them differently. I never believed that, always believed that I tried to help out our friends when I could. Maybe she looked at that as being a snob, who knows.

Anyway, it has always helped me to have drive and work hard to make a solid living. My career took a big huge backseat over the last 3 years and it needed to. However this change in "status" has not been the easiest thing to adjust to. I guess maybe humbled is the wrong way to look at it. Out of my comfort zone, is more accurate. I need to work on that big time.


Ian


M- 48
XW- mentally 17
KIDS- 3- S19, D23, D28
Married- 17 years
Divorce final- 10/16/09