SO2, Keep hanging in there, thinking is not so bad - its the acting on the thoughts that get us into trouble. Emotions need to be moderated by paying attention to our thoughts i.e. when an emotion comes up think about why it is there in the first place -or if a thought comes up ask yourself what do you feel about this. If I miss him, as I do every night, I remember why he is not there. If I think we can talk things out rationally I have to remember the anger that comes up instead. The first time we separated I missed him a lot and had a lot of love for him but reminded myself that I can love him but I can have R with him when his first love is A. It helped me get through tough days. This time I have remind myself that I love him but can't live with the anger. Positive thoughts are with you and keep talking to us instead of him.