Forgive AND forget?

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I think for me to give forgiveness it comes in stages. I didn't just decide one day I could get over it and forgive. To get all the way there has to be something more from H to meet me on the bubble. I am probably thinking too far into the future again. I need to work in the present.

Don't forget the past but don't stay there either. Use the past to move forward.

There are some triggers that can still send me into orbit and once my lips start moving I can't zip it. It isn't often but it happens yet. I wouldn't want to live with someone that kept verbally slapping me in the face. Yet at some point shouldn't the offender understand that the offended will have backslides of outbursts?

cat, I just made that comment earlier tonight that I wish I had a fast forward button! I get tired of thinking of how many more stinkin' baby steps are needed.....

What does he see, doubt or love? Ironic you ask that because I've been wondering that. When H walks in the house and we make eye contact what message am I sending? 'hey jerk, you're home late again and you make me feel like a dog pile because you won't call' or does he sense 'hi, I'm glad you made it home safe tonight and thanks for being here'. Probably more of the first than the last.

Phoenix, what's your update?