Wow. This is why I started my own story. Because that's the feedback I wanted. People who have no emotional ties to this whole thing telling me what I can't think for myself due to having been hurt. When I'm confused I come here to get some help. And tonight I've gotten some good help. Please believe when I say I'm trying to get past it all. I am. Reading everything was great. Yes, I obsess, yes at times I want my W to feel the pain she's caused me. Yes, I snoop because I don't trust. Yes,yes,yes.....That's why I'm here. To get help from others. Yes, I never worried about my W before all this. She went anywhere she wanted and did whatever she wanted. I never told her she couldn't. When I was younger I was jealous. Learned that didn't work. She isn't doing anything to hurt me. I'm just being an obsessive, jealous Husband. Sorry I've sort of lost my train of thought. Been bathing the kids and typing at the same time. I don't recommend it. So if I sound a little off thats why. I just want help for all this. I want to make my M the better than it was before. I never want this to happen again. One thing my W does say. She says at times she's glad this all happened. Because she got her Husband back. Yes, I wasn't always there for her. She wanted the man she married to be the same. And I lost sight of all that. Ok I blame myself at times. I'm hard on myself for being thick headed and never realized the pain I brought on to my wife for not being or taken more time out for her. Bottom line is I Love my W...........That's why I'm here. Having your input helps. I thank you all. It's nice to have you folks kick me in my ass and help keep my eyes open to what's important. By the way, when I tell my wife it hurts me, my coach said it may not work right away but give it time. Eventually when she sees everything working out in our M she'll not want to ruin that. Now I feel like I'm rambling.
