wow, soulm8. You're almost my W. I'm sorry how things turned out for you. Since I posted on your thread to ask lodo a question, I thought the least I could do was read your post.
I'm sorry for your sitch. I'm sure there is much, much more to the story, on both sides.
I guess you wouldn't be here if you didn't want some advice, or at least expect it :-)
Since he has moved on, you need to too. If you've started the DB books, you know about Getting a Life (GAL). Do it with a passion. If you need advice on what to do or how to do it, ask here.
You're not dying, you are probably growing. It hurts.
Continue to be a good friend to your ex, and sometimes being a good friend means not contacting them or talking to them. Practicce unconditional love for him.
Detach. Detach. and give yourself time to get over it and heal. OK, you'll never get over it, but you will feel better, and alive, again.
Now I better read the rest of what's here to make sure I didn't totally put my foot in my mouth.
take care
M45, W45,S15, D10, Bomb 10/3/06, Moved back in 11/6/06, finally ILY 9/07 last thread