Day 2 of her being at home. I slept in guest bedroom last night at her request. She needed the space. She came down sick last today along with my SD15. So they both stayed home.
Let her back into the Cell account as I am done looking at it. She will do what she will do. She thanked me in a nice way. Baby step? It only affects me in a negative way and it's draining my energy. Went to IC today he felt I needed to back off on the surveillence as I had accomplished exposing the A. I agree. It's emotionally exhausting.
When I go home I will work out make sure the kids are taken care of and spend the evening in the basement watching TV and reading and get myself some space. Hopefully get to bed early. My batteries are running down. I need to empower myself with some dim time. This would be a 180 for me by the way.
Feeling okay. Hard to focus at work. But overall a decent day. I am working on creating space that at first I thought I was doing for her but realized I needed it for me.
Will see how it goes.
Jeff
***Getting up every day and learning to breathe in a new me. For me and my children***
Me: 43 W: 38 SD-15 S(s): 12,9,7 Separated-2/14/2009 My sitch
