(((((Ali))))) You know, this isn't what I wanted. But, I also didn't want what I had. So, I had to make a choice. And had to choose to make things change, and I was the only one that could do it. I knew that if I pushed for change, it could come to this, and I was ready for it. The way I feel now, I'm pretty sure that I was ready. I'm sure that I will be sad. I'm pretty sure I will have regrets. But I also think that I'll know that I did the right thing.
W is not a bad person. She is a great mom. She was supportive of me most of the time. When she wasn't, it may have been that I didn't know how to ask. I think I supported her, as well. And when she didn't feel it, I think it might have been that she didn't know how to ask, either. We have four great kids. We are going to get through this, maybe not as "friends" but not as enemies, either. Neither of us wants to leave the other in a bad spot, and I think we can pull it off. I think at the end of the day it could be that I can't live the way she wants to live, and she can't live the way I want to live. We tried to make it work. We had a twenty four year run, and a lot of it was good. A lot was not so good. But, in the end, I'm not going to regret it.
I'm going to try to learn from it, and make the next half (ok, I may be a little optimistic!) of my life even better!
