Forgive AND forget?

[WCW]

I feel like a messy mixture of emotions. Skip to the last line for explanation.

Forgive and forget. Can that ever really happen? forgive AND forget? I can and do forgive but it seems that to forget would be silly and make it easy to relapse.

I feel progress from H but I never feel any security, I keep asking myself is any of this real? Is H turning the bend? Is it my imagination?

This morning H had a handful of medical insurance cards and asked me if any of them were still good. The answer was no. I carry the insurance for us thru my work. I asked why, are you sick? He had made an appt for a physical for today. I gave him my card to take with him. To condense the story H asked if I would check on some things for him and I did. I like to do those sort of things for H and it's been quite a while since he's asked.

The good news -
H took this initiative, he hasn't had a physical in 4 or 5 years and told me in advance of his appt, even though it was just a few hours. We ended up talking about me and mammograms and I said I had been lax on that after I got an all clear from having to have 6 month checks and could go back to annual. He said 'at your age it's important to have them'. I did well, I didn't bristle at his age comment. lol. I know what he meant. Today I made an appt for myself.

I've been fielding more requests for H to do horse training again, he is agreeing.

We already agreed on and have an appt made to see the accountant in March to do taxes. This is a very BIG step for us!

The bad news - H's cc debt. Over the top..!! I am fretting and in a tizzy about it but trying to stay calm and figure out what plan to take.