....Maybe he's thinking he could just swing a PA instead of an EA. I don't know why though... it's not because of lacking here.
I don't think this has anything at all to do with you and your R!! It's emotions that inside himself! He'll figure it out!
My C has told me, and I believe this, that insecurity is not so much a manifestation of lack of trust in somebody else. It's a lack of trust in YOURSELF!! You have to trust yourself to be able to handle whatever comes your way!
Remember how far you have come!! I was so very envious of you when we talked!! Your strength and ingenuity in dealing with your H while you were seperated really inspired me and I have used that as a guide for myself several times over the past couple weeks and it has really helped!!
I believe your H means it when he says that it was just BS conversation to him and that he is committed to your M and wants to continue. The fact that he did not get angry at you and try to deflect the spotlight back on you says an awful lot for his character in my opinion!! Really!!
But even if he did make the choice to go down another path again, remember that you are strong and you can handle whatever life throws at you! You've been tested and proven up to task. Don't allow old patterns and fears to take you back down that dark hole that you worked so hard to climb out of.
You are a phenomenal woman, and your H knows that very well!!! Don't you forget it!!
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TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd