Trying to let go........with love!

[Silent Chrleader]

Thank you, [[[[[YR]]]]], for being the proverbial angel on my shoulder!

Actually I know that to him it makes perfect sense. Since we are seperated, and he has said he wants a D, in his mind he is free to do what he wants.

He is very close with this co-worker and her husband, so this would make a very cosy little foursome. And she knows we are seperated, not divorced, and tried to set him up with the sister pretty much immediately upon hearing about it. So, I'm thinking the sister know his M status and is fine with it......although I know they don't know of the affair and I know co-worker would NOT appreciate that! But, H will never tell anybody that. That would ruin his image.

H is very much a workaholic now, so this tie in with his real mistress (i.e. his job) would very much appeal to him. He would very much like to just go off happily to live his new sophisticated prestigious affluent life.

And then with the issues recently with S17......H told me on the phone that he is just so full right now......and yet he has time for a "wonderful weekend" with his new life companions!! And hastn't done ANY work on the house, although he says that's what he doing this weekend.

I didn't voice any of this to him. I was happy and upbeat and when he told me about the party, I just said "Well, I'm glad you had a good time." He didn't even ask me about my weekend and he knew I was going dancing on Friday. I thought about telling him I had a good time too and that I even slow danced! But, I didn't.......I thought that would just come off as tit-for-tat pathetic.

I just wish I could choose to turn off my emotions the way he can. This really hurts! Even though I know I don't want the person he is right now, it really really hurts!