Thanks 1hope. That's what I was wondering and hoping to hear. I need all the help I can get. There's nothing I want more than my wife. When I got married I knew she was the one and as time has passed I have realized that she is the one I want to be with. So it makes it hard to have her upset at me. I never meant to say what I said. I said it out of anger and I'm sorry for it.
Sandi Yes my M wasn't in a good place. But that's an excuse. Give me a good reason? Her conversations with OM was didn't start out that way. He had an open door and saw it. So he had nothing to lose. She bit because she wasn't getting the attention from me. This I know and am guilty for. I am moving on. Doing the best I can to forgive her and myself for not being there for her and us.I'm just hoping that she doesn't give up on me. I've never experienced her this upset. I do believe she's ashamed of what went on and me not letting go isn't helping her or me. But I'm trying. Do you get that. I'm trying. It's not easy. I have to learn to not let my emotions or thoughts of OM get the best of me because that's what leads to my anger towards my W. My last session with my coach opened my eyes and made me realize if I keep pushing I will lose her all together. I just hope I haven't done that already. Tomorrow will be a week since I called her a whore and she's still real hurt and mad at me. I'm just going to plug along and hope things get better.
