I am sure that there are alot of people out there that would appreciate your skills. Maybe you could volunteer some time and make some new friends. It would do wonders for your self-esteem. Even just getting out of the house is good. I have a hard time going to the movies alone but I have done it several times since this past summer. Think of stuff that you loved but gave up for your spouse and get doing it again!
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Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory