Divorced, but 'still hopeful' to reconcile.

[still hopeful]

The past two days I have had minimal contact with XW. When I have had contact with XW, I simply act as if it's 'no big deal' that we are in each others presence and/or talking. I feel a lot less anxiety lately than I usually have over the past 3 years. I am starting to let go and I know that she will sense that my feelings are changing. I am really trying to focus on activities, including praying, to improve and calm myself rather than allowing unproductive thoughts of XW to loop in my head. I am making progress. I feel it and it's nice. Different and nice.