Believe me I was angry too and let it show in the beginning. I had to bite my tongue so many times when he was around that it's a wonder I still have one. It seemed when the anger came out it pushed him farther away. So my C told me just to punch a pillow or if I was by myself just to yell to get it out. Also journaling helped me quite a bit.
I know your H is in there somewhere. He is deep within himself right now. Those feelings for you and your life together are buried way down. Time and alot of patience is the key to all of this. You are doing well!!!!
