Perhaps you did lose your reputation but did you lose it with the only person that has a vote? Does your H constantly see you as such? I think you could honestly say no to both questions. You have a second chance and you have both taken it.
Sure it might be fun to revisit the past with high school friends but if that is what you would like to do why don't you invite your "old gang" to a get together. No one says you have to go to a reunion just because you are having one. No one wants to hang out with the gossips anyhow except for the other gossips!!
Hold your head up high, I am incredibly proud of you.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory