We have made it to the other side 3

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, [[[[[[YR & Treese]]]]]]

In a wierd way, I almost wish my H had a skanky OW because I could at least understand that and would know it would never last.

My H's PA only lasted supposedly the one night, and the OW is now with another boyfriend. H told me the night I found out about the PA that he would still be with her, but she wanted more kids and he didn't (although he has since amended his story to say that they both realized quickly that it was a mistake and it was just "two hurting best friends consoling each other".)

My H candidly says he doesn't know what he wants, he just knows that he doesn't want me! And now he every time we even talk, he is cold and distant because he says even being kind leads me on......

I'm betting he won't file for D until he meets someone, because he will lose money from his retirement when he is no longer "married". So after the financial stuff is stable (i.e. the house(s) either sold or rented) I probably won't hear from him at all, and then one day I be served with the papers.....

I know this is all "future fu**ing" and I really try not to think about it, and just take one day at a time......but this fear is still in the back of my mind.....