Hey K!
"I am not giving up on my dream to be loved and cherished and have fun while I am alive... I am not."

I couldnt have put it better myself. I guess its hard to get into 'selfish mode' when you have kids, you are used to putting someone else before you and also with feeling concern for how your parents view you etc. How do you think it might manifest for your H? I wonder if he will want to still come over and see you and stuff? But you can see a clearer path now? Maybe this is the final leg of the roller coaster hey...

Al xxx