Life in the Rough - Practice That Swing!

[Babygirl]

morning hope! hope your feet are thawing out!

i love the cherokee story!!

[1hope]

I have my little heater going, but I really wished that I had my big fuzzy slippers. At least we don't have the bad weather that you guys have. Just the cold.

How are you little one? Any good news? What's going on with the H's new tv?

[Babygirl]

LOL the H's new tv, well, i watched it while i slept on the couch lol!! yesterday was 2 months from the child Dday. and i really needed him to go to church with me. its the only thing that we have that is just ours and she hasnt taitnted. and the fact a TV was just another thing more important than me, hurt.

[1hope]

I know sweetie, I know. They have no idea how the anniversary dates of these things hurt us.

My H asked me why the memories were bothering me so much this weekend. He says he is here, tells me that he is sorry, it won't happen again etc.

I finally, calmly asked him how HE would feel if I had been the one doing all those sexual things with one of his friends.

I think he finally understood then.

True forgiveness will have to come whether or not they help or make it easy for us. That has to come from us, without any resentment.

I know, I am still working on it.

[MT35]

Hope, you are doing great! You have so much to be proud of yourself for! You are an inspiration!

[1hope]

I'm trying. I have my little heater on, and at least we don't have the nasty weather yet, just the bitter cold.

What day do your classes start MT? What are you taking this semester?

[1hope]

I don't feel proud. I feel like I should have seen that it was coming. But I didn't. I trusted him totally. And she, I can't tell you how many times she told me "I just like to flirt, you have nothing what-so-ever to fear from me." Oh sure!!!!!!

I know that my own behaviors helped to make my H feel insecure and needy. And of course the cancer thing didn't help at all, either.

He put on a good front, but in hind sight I know he was really freaking out.

[Babygirl]

oh he doesnt even know. when i tried to talk to him, he started making all these excuses as to WHY it had to be sunday and just at that time. uh he could have done it today or tomorrow, its close to where he works..........

[MT35]

Hope, we all trusted. We all gave our hearts. You should be proud of how well you have dealt with all of this, and how much support you have given to others!

[MT35]

Hope, meant to put in there, most of us are here because we did trust.