Well, to make a long story short......... CRASH AND BURN!
I did receive an e-mail back and well, although it did bring communication which was great, it failed on the re-reply. I sent an email back of course responding. At one point I mentioned how happy I was that he was responding and that I appreciated it, and that I also knew how hard it was for him. I then answered some questions and clarified a few things he had misunderstood. At one point in the letter I told him I was upset by ( something or other ) for whatever reason and explained myself.
Well........... the reply came and he basically got angry with me! Said that he talked, and he doesn't want it to be hard. lol OH my. Basically when it gets hard, he's out. I am suppose to bear with him, let him get angry I guess, but the same doesn't go for me. I told him this would be hard, and at times we'd both get angry over things so we needed to bear with each other. Apparently that bodes well for him , but not me. He is of course the one against any and all conflict. He says he fought his whole life, and he wont fight with his life partner. If it gets tough, bury your head in the sand. UGHH!
So, at this point I just returned an email saying that YES< it might get hard at times, but he has to expect that, and to let me know if he's in or not.
Yah, I'm done. Feel no guilt anymore whatsoever. He can start trying, I'm going to sit back and wait now. IF an email comes, great. Otherwise I wont be sending more. There's no point, and I'm not fighting for someone who does not want to be fought for!
btw Spouses fight, its normal. Anyone want to send him a post it note on that. I don't know how to get him to understand that having arguments at times is a normal thing, and not bad. Unfortunately his childhood was full of beating so I get why he thinks that way, but I'm not about to start beating him, and I also can't talk with a man who when it gets emotional he shuts down because it is what he did as a 10yr old. He's NOT 10 anymore. That worked back then, NOT now.
