Everytime I lay my head on the pillow, a vivid memory of some horrible thing ex did or said pops up. Things that were done so long ago that I thought were long forgotten.
Buried horrors.
You guys know what I am talking about.
Those things said or done that you thought your Ml'er was never capable of doing or saying.
I don't know why this has been happening lately.
This is the 3rd night in a row of this.
Maybe the devil is at work.
Tonight I relived the moment my ex told me he was in search of a different family to love him.
He talked about my kids having a stepmother and how they would benefit in having "another mother in their lives".
Cruel
He said these things about 3 years ago.
I know all of you have your stories of horror.
I was just thinking where do all these memories go?
How can they just be forgotten.
Impossible.
Won't we carry these things with us forever?
Repressed memories, thoughts.
Will this cause us to go through mid life or post traumatic stress?
I know it is possible to forgive, but is it possible to forget?
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
