Jeff Thanks for all the feed back. It helps a lot knowing other peoples stories. I do have a coach and she's great. I would be worse off right now if not for her. She let me know that everything my W has done since my discovery of the texts has been to prove to me that she loves me and wants to be with me. Also that she's probable really ashamed of herself and is also having a hard time forgiving herself. I know everything will eventually workout but it's not easy at times. My obsession of all the facts and what I do know get the best of me. That's why I started this topic of my own. To help me when I can't speak with my coach. My coach also noted that it may be awhile before my wife forgives me for what I called her. So for now I'll it crow and keep working on my M.........Listened to some music from my high school days when life was soooooooooo much easier. Doing what I can to pass the time and not let my mind wander. I hope things workout for you. You know I've been tempted to EA but the fact I believe in what I stand for makes it easy not to be tempted. Even thought about having an EA just to even the playing field but 2 wrongs don't make a right. I could go on forever talking about this situations we are in. The best thing is its very healing. I cried today when I was driving to the store after I dropped off my kids at my folks home. Jimmy Valvano said it best on the espy's some years ago. Laugh, cry, think. That's a full day, but you need to do it. "Never give up" Jimmy V..
