Thanks FG, living in this limbo has been extremely difficult. You, me, many of us here, we seek the support to get us thru this.
We can't usually do anything to hurry or rush or change our S. What we work on is us, and I've always tried to remember to be the person that my H fell in love with and vowed to M for the rest of our lives. I got away from who I was when I got so wrapped up in doing what I thought was supporting my H. I think I realize now that I was smothering him. Support vs smother.
Gaining strength to face the future. You too.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.