I am considering NC with my H. Last night we got together for dinner. I thought if we did something we could avoid talking about R. He made it almost to the end of dinner when he started. I suggested we not talk now. He agreed and then kept talking. So, I tried to reason with him, and then he suggested we not talk now. And then he kept on going etc. Anyway, I wasn't very happy when we left and so I decided to end the night early. We had plans for today so I thought it would give us some time. Two minutes after I left his apt he is calling me to say that we are nowhere closer to resolving things and he wanted to cancel our plans for the next day. I just politely said that I understood and said good bye. I felt like it was the same old stuff - tit for tat. He says he wants to be with me but he keeps doing things that piss me off and when I am frustrated and tired, he gets angry and withdraws. So I got home and another usual pattern is that after a good nights sleep he calls the next morning to apologize and wants to talk about the R and reinstate our plans. After thinking last night I decided not to turn my phone on today using the excuse that he cancelled our plans and the kids can call the house phone so it doesn't need to be on. (he can call the house phone but doesn't) I will see him tommorrow at work but not looking forward to it. I am sooooo frustrated and tired. After telling me recently that he had been too stubborn about moving back while the kids were still here - he had made a decision to return and work it out. Last night he tells me that he will move back in with the kids but there has to be an end date for them to leave. Two steps forward, one back. But i also recognize what I wrote earlier about the memories. I am discouraged because I M for companionship - I had everything else. and now I don't have that.
