Okay so the initial stage is over and I am really messed up.

It hit me like a tidal wave today. I feel physically ill. I have NEVER felt anything like this. To think what I put HER through. This is almost unbearable. She left last night (2nd night in a row), called OM, not sure why. Have no idea if shes coming back or what.

Took the kids to church and I just was numb sitting there.I have no idea what to do...This is the most lost feeling I have ever had.

We have to be out of the house in a month or two and have to rent..She's thinking two small homes for a separation. i don't know how we can afford that. So staying in the marital home...She tells me she dreads being here when I am here. What now?

Jeff

***Getting up every day and learning to breathe in a new me. For me and my children***

Me: 43
W: 38
SD-15
S(s): 12,9,7
Separated-2/14/2009
My sitch