As long as H and I are still M, OW IS apart of my life. As long as I still want him with me, she is a big part of that not happening. My life IS still interwined with H's. We are still M. We still have this farm, we share the same bills, account, responsibilties. We are only seperated and not even legally.
I was letting him be, not contacting. But then he comes. He sits with me, he shares with me his days (or what he chooses to share). And before or after, he is still talking to her. God! I hate it. I feel like a fool in this situation. What if they are plotting this big plan against me. What if she is guiding him in how to handle the D? This is the kind of stuff that drives me crazy.
And no me jumping on him doesn't help the sitch at all. But dambit don't I have a right to stand up for what is right? At least how I will allow myself to be treated?
your right about him knowing where I am. But I played that game. I would disappear. He wouldn't ask about me. Did't matter, he didn't care. I really have no place to go or nothing to do so why bother. It doesn't matter anyway. I went last night because I wanted to. That is all. Again it hurt. But I'm glad I went. Nephew won and I got to see it, this time I didn't miss it because H was there.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
