Cinders,

((((hugs))))

Truly letting go is so very hard.

Making sure that we are not allowing ourselves to manipulate a situation is also difficult.

It is good you are recognizing the reasons for your actions.

Make sure that uninviting him to your birthday is truly what you want and not about punishing him.

You really will get it, it all just takes time.

You are still going through the motions, and the grieving process.

He keeps you hanging on because it is convenient for him.

He has not filed for a Divorce for a reason.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.