Time for me to change....scared as Hell! 2

[theotherhalf]

Thanks all,

I did call him (I KNOW I KNOW sometimes there is no stopping me). I asked how he knew about friend. He said he didn't remember. "I said yes you do. I said what I don't know doesn't hurt me and I was doing so good, then you have to make sure I know. You have no idea how hard this is"
He couldn't talk as he was at BIL's. He said he'd talk to me later. He said your getting yourself all worked up for nothing. He said okay. I said no things will never be okay. He said yes they will. I hung up.

Well SIL called me in the mixt of my tears. She asked me to go with her to the fights. (like NFC that my nephew does) I said no. To hard to be around H in public because he ignores me or stares at me. Especially after what happened today. After I hung up the phone I thought. Sit here and be miserable? or Go try to have some fun and get to watch nephew? Why should I let H keep me away? So I went. I had a good time. H was standing outside when I walked up. He went in as soon as he seen me. We sat 1 table away from each other. He never acknowledged I was even there. Ouch! But I didn't let it get to me.

Glad I went. And I am okay.

Not going to lie. I looked at him a couple of times. He was drunk. And I thought to myself. What the hell do I see in this man. It's getting harder and harder to see.