Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Well, so much for enjoying a nice "quality" evening with my kids........I just had a blow up with S17. After taking his friend home that I had allowed to come over today and hang out with us, S17 started giving me attitude that he didn't want to go over to the house with me and help with picking up a few items that are still over there.

I took exception to his attitude after I have been the one in his corner, fighting for him. He just looked at me with contempt and rolled his eyes (just like his father!) and I told him that I did not want this in my life anymore. I've supported him (even though he hasn't exactly been proactive at looking for a job). I give him an allowance, I get him the food he wants and pay the bills. We had agreed to be honest with each other and treat each other respectfully and he has fallen down on both those promises.

So, I told him that if this was the way he wanted to behave and if he thought this was acceptable behavior, then there was the door. I took his phone and his keys. And he called me a bi**h and left.

D24 was here during this whole thing and went out to talk to him, but he's stubborn. I did call H, who has his phone turned off. I had called him earlier to let him know that the carpet cleaner we have wasn't doing great on the spots in his apartment, so he may want to bring a big cleaner home from where he works tomorrow. It was a short conversation and nothing else was mentioned. Anyway, Now I've left H a message telling him briefly what happened, and that if he heard from S17 to let me know so I knew he is safe.

I freakin' hate this!! It seems just when I am feeling on track, BOOM!!!, another piece of sh** hits the fan!! I'm so sick of it!