Time for me to change....scared as Hell! 2

[theotherhalf]

how in the hell can I be the lighthouse when this OW is clouding the light?

For I minute I let myself believe that the huge smile on my H's face today may be because he was glad to see me.

And then OW is there to take it all away, again. The smile on his face and his good mood was more likely because he spent 140 min on the phone with her and may have been with her last night.

Damb it. Your all wrong. This does not get any easier. Sure I get better at pretending. For awhile. Then it all comes back.