I too am really working on the letting go thing! I don't need the tension, and I don't even really like the man my H is right now. I believe that the man I will love to my dying day is still in there, and hope with all my heart to have him in my life again someday, but unless/until that happens, I am truly better off without him!
A funny thing......H called me on my cell yesterday when I was on the ferry after work. He said he just wanted to talk to me about having found D24's CNA certificate, while cleaning her room at the house. He said he'd like too get it to her, but didn't think she would answer his call. I said he could give it to me when we see each other next Tuesday for our C session with S17. His tone was friendly and upbeat, and I hung up first. It was pretty short and sweet. It wasn't until much later that I thought "And he felt he needed to call me for that why????" Strange.......
I've been wondering if H asks me how my evening last night went, should I just say it was a lot of fun, and leave everything a mystery? Or should I give him a little more info, like tell him I had a great time and danced a LOT and even did a slow dance....and then leave him to draw his own conclusions??
He probably won't even ask. And will NOT volunteer any information at all, unless he asks!!!
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TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd