Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Thanks, BM.

I feel like I am all over the place emotionally still, but I am not on the verge of crying constantly enymore, and that is a good thing.

S17 is still pushing every limit. We have got notification from the school that he has not been going to the two classes he kept at the regular school, but he says he has been.....?? He says he has not gone to the alternative school because he "doesn't need to." I don't think that is the case, but he's almost 18! I can't make him do anything, and I am not ready to just "give up" on him like H seems ready to do (and I probably never will be.)

So, I keep trying to talk sense into S17, and hope that some of it sinks in and that he will come around to making better choices as time goes on. He is still in C both with us there with him and on his own, so it's not like nothing is being done. Our C worries most about his cavalier attitude toward substances, and there is substance abuse in both sides of the family....

Like I said, I'm not giving up, and I do have hope. And at least he has not been real nasty to me. His attitude in conversations with me is better than it used to be. I just have a hard time trusting what he says, so I do worry. But, I know without doubt that he is a good kid.

We are headed out to do the carpets at H's apartment and then to do something fun!