Stage 5, Acceptance

[faithisbelieving]

To my friends here....I feel the need to just add one thing.

I know to some that my posts have seemed kind of 'eh' lately, but, for the most part, I am doing well (wish financially better tho'). I am up...working...focused...back to working out. In fact, a woman wants to meet me for coffee tomorrow.

I am on top of things with the kids. I enrolled my son in baseball camp today and spent the afternoon with him. He did great. Tomorrow I am coaching my daughter and the girl's lacrosse clinic. I am building his Pinewood Derby car with my son and I have ordered the books linked above.

I have been honest with all of you here and continue to be. I stay clear of my wife. I don't taunt her...tease her...look for ways to annoy her...confront her spontaneously and, in general, I will back away from any button pushing that she does.

We are on a weekly schedule of who sleeps in the MBR. Our days are pretty much written in stone with who does homework and what night is generally the other person's time window. I text her to keep her informed of the kids. They are given my cell phone when she calls. The kids get my cell phone when THEY ask to call her.

The majority of of negativity, intrusion, lack of communication, invading space, etc....comes or is initiated by her.

I must deal with this.

The 'positive' thing about being locked in purgatory with her is that it will 'force' a settlement instead of this dragging out for years. The negative aspect is, well, quite obvious.

There is NO doubt, however, that my STBXW, is a negative drain on me...that she is unhappy and emotionally unstable and acts immaturely.

That is my sitch. I am dealing with it. Sometimes I make good decisions and say good things. Sometimes, it is hard to not have the buttons pushed so hard that it still stings. My focus is on me...new reading materials for positivity and personal growth..total focus on my kids.

Thanks for all your support. It IS a challenge.

FIB