i have been in a funk for awhile now. i don't know how to explain it--i hate to say this but i could really care less about my husband. i have no feelings toward him, i just want to sit him down and make him shut up and listen to ME and tell him all the things that have happened since all of this mess but i won't do it. i don't want to see him, i don't even want him near me because every time i see him, in my head are visions of him with a man (yes, she looks like a man!).

really, i am that numb toward him and honestly, it would take a lot for me to get those old feelings back.

The Bomb: 08/05
H moves out: 06/2006
H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07
H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08
H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09
Divorced 08-12
Kids: 22, 20, 19