Thank you Silva! You actually brought tears to my eyes. A therapist once told me that I have two things to deal with...the infidelity and the alcoholism. Until my exh changes with the alcohol nothing else will.

You are so right on with your ideas. Exh doesn't want to give up the alcohol or the pills. He lost his first family to them and now his second. I am a reminder of what he should be doing and OW just lets him do what he wants. Thank you for saying that and I am so happy you caught on to your own drinking before it got bad. It still hurts like hell.

Its the weekend and exh will drink. If he is alone he will text. I am going to turn my phone off in awhile.

I will probably be posting here alot!!!!

Me: 46 FWS: 36
Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07
Baby Girl born 3/08
Kicked him out because OW: 7/08
5/10 He realized what he had and lost.
Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!