This thought of D is in my head 24/7. I really don't know what to do at this point. I think the ONLY thing that keeps me from filing is the "what if" and not having the retainer redily available. Otherwise I see no other reason to not file. I love my H very much. I still want to grow old with that man. This man today, no. I see no positives in our R or in him. I am having a harder and harder time finding hope in R. I am feeling really defeated.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
